even more than i imagined

seed
i’m scared to really look it in the eye
(what i really want)
because i don’t think i can have it.

i can’t keep it.

and what have i done wrong to make it so that this is so?
i’m covering my heart and drowning instead.
i want my experience to hold me
because i can’t hold myself in this way.

in my dream, the seed that is planted makes me special.
i’m ready for it.
then it’s gone when i open my eyes.
then i want it back even more than imagined i did.

 

© r.e.l. 7/16/14

 

 

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all i am, known

Image source: http://thebestgardening.com/maple-seed-deception/

All I am is because of you. These wheels that turn are dedicated to your presence, as your eyes—across waves and time—have been on me.

You kept me honest, and kept me brave. I became someone because of you. Do you want to know how? I will tell you if you promise to walk by my side.

I want you to reknow me in the present. I am a person more flawed and more sensitive and consumed. In this you will truly know me and all that I have become. My experiences have become me.

Sometimes I sit and wait, always watching, never veering from the inner smile that makes up my insides and only sometimes shows on my face. In these moments, I am content and I want you to feel—actually, I know you do—my moments.

Maybe it’s the wind that captures me or leaves flying through the air, sometimes landing on my toes, that allow me to know that you know. It’s not as if you know it all, but you know when. Not exactly what, but that yes, you feel me in this moment. I know it is shared.

You know how to feel my moments.

writing inspired by The English Patient

[Behind the eyes of a writer™: A series, part seventeen Continuing on from between the letters, part sixteen in Behind the eyes of a writer™ series, the space to find the words needs to be opened, calmly with confidence.. Part eighteen in my Behind the eyes of a writer™ series is next]

© r.e.l. 11/11/13

Image source: http://thebestgardening.com/maple-seed-deception/

Featured on redbubble’s VaVoom

Featured on redbubble’s Feminine Intent

submitted to The Poetic Bond IIII  7/12/14

like smoke, of blue and green

Aurora+Borealis,+Alaska950

like the smoky light that passes by
inside me
my stomach, on edge
my senses, fluttering

as i hang thoughts
of us
on the baffling air
that defines our devotion

the time approaches
as we’ve planned
…and then i hear a voice inside speaking softly
but i’m not perfect enough yet. not today. one more day.

yet waiting, unfathomable

but, i know you
and all the reasons
as lessons
for them
for you
for me

so that in the end i
could have you

and still, i can’t help but get tangled up in the world of wondering why you aren’t here right now.

© r.e.l. 4/14/13

image source: mary mary

a single embrace

sometimes even

a

single

embrace

a touch

can help you build anew

…although vulnerable

as pieces inside of you

are ebbing, are fading,

you learn how to be alive

resilient, supple

and tiptoe forward

soles to the earth

step by step

to prize your beautiful

life

© r.e.l. 6/10/12

[also posted on redbubble]

as blood flowing

by cricketw, Redbubble

your path knows
i heard you say last night
while you were breathing

i vow now
i promise
to include you too,
little soul inside

i hear you
as honest as blood
flowing

it will happen
in the way it needs to
in the most unexpected
moment …

pass into the rite
it’s magic

© r.e.l. 6/4/12

image by by cricketw, Redbubble

posted on Micropoetry (partial)

petals

if you ever feel
lost
each piece of you,
a flower petal,
thrown and left alone
on the ground
without a cause…

just remember
that you are
a forest of flowers…

© r.e.l. 10/13/11 + simsha

image by simeon schatz

Posted for Poet’s Rally 10/19-10/25/11 at The Poetry Palace

Received the Perfect Poet Award… Thank you, I accept 🙂  I nominated Sarah Johnston for next week.

Featured in Feminine Intent on redbubble

between spaces of time, misty

between spaces of time, misty
you start to believe
that you always have time
like a river

a precious you
is waiting to notice
in this moment
saved for you

see through
what follows you home
to be your pillow…
a winding path
on a daydream
leads to your smile

it’s already for you
to hear,
so listen to its whisper
you are beautiful

© r.e.l. 9/22/11

image of yoga robin™

by s i m s h a

Posted for Thursday Poets Rally 9/21-9/27/11 on Poetry Palace

a deeper order

create me like i created you
in the space
which lies deeper than you know

it is where, you see,
i first found
the concept of your
decision
to think outside your unexpected life
and roar instead

impactful.
i sighed

© r.e.l. 5/18/11

Posted on Thursday Poet’s Rally 5/19-5/25/11 on Promising Poets

… thank you, Promising Poets, for the Celebrate Poet of Summer Award!

… thank you, Promising Poets, for the Perfect Poet award!  I cherish this community of poets and am honored… For next week, I nominate deadpoet88.  -robin

secrets unknown

through hidden stairways
i see you best
the way you grow
in between
that which is covered
(and unknown…)

but beautiful you are
(secret, speak to me)

the ones who know
are lucky ones
who live there
in your recipe of magic

the others
pass
and find in you
their favorite
moments
(reverse time now
to show me
your unknown)

© r.e.l. 4/27/11

image taken at a secret 108 address


posted for Thursday Post 28.4.11 on Ethereal Heights