your wandering heart

April 27, 2015August 23, 2016 / my secret innuendo / 18 Comments

if you saw through my eyes and heart to who you are to me, maybe it would be different for you now in your mind that wanders.

if you saw my teardrops when i think of the way you turn away when i say it wrong, maybe you’d know the truth.

if you remind me of someone who i hurt deeply or who hurt me, maybe you’d know that any word or look could activate that and become you.

if you heard me explain through my wounds, maybe you could feel yourself and me better and then know why i am shielding you from me.

if you knew that i could and desire to protect you and know exactly what to do and how to hold you, maybe you would feel content now just imagining it.

if you knew that every day i imagine where you are and wonder if i could find you in my days, maybe you’d look for me.

if you knew just how much i care and my capacity to love, maybe you could feel my vulnerable self who worries that it would overwhelm you.

if you only knew just how much i could love you…

if you only knew what a hole your absence leaves, maybe you would come back to me.

if you knew how turned on i am just to be by your side, maybe your heart would smile when you saw me.

if you knew how awkward it is for me too to be alone, maybe you would see yourself in my mirror.

if you knew that i already know you from my dream last night, maybe that would help you live in the present right now and connect with me in the spaces between us.

if you knew that to look in your eyes revives me, maybe you would look into me more and see who you are to me.

if you settled into your true self and asked yourself ‘why?’, maybe your answer would be my voice and then you’d know.

if you truly become your heart, you will really feel me… do you still think i don’t care?

if you feel your breath the way i do, sense your presence the way i do, hold your moments the way i do, you would know how much you are loved.

Received Perfect Poet Award for Thursday Poets Rally week 81 on Hyde Park Poetry. thank you…

Published on Rebelle Society {poetry} 5.26.15

my voice as it describes you

January 2, 2015February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 23 Comments

come to me with your confidence
and all
that you know i want.

you don’t expect me to be someone i’m not,
because you know i am vulnerable, right?

you can see the tenderness in
the reality of my defenseless heart.

i like my voice as it describes you to me

…and now, i have something i need to tell you

in person.

don’t ask me to show you what it’s like to lose a beautiful heart,
mine.
don’t let me go another day before i tell you i love you.

Won Perfect Poet Award in Thursday Poets Rally week 79 with Hyde Park Poetry

confidence in me
inching toward you breath by breath
i miss you today

I nominate Sina Saberi

wood path

January 23, 2012February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 4 Comments

i will be with you

in it

soon after

for the first time

when our paths

lead to

how right we are

on our wood path

to us

Posted for Thursday Poet Rally 1/25-31/12 on Promising Poets Parking Lot

Thank you, Ava, and poet community for the Perfect Poet Award 🙂 I accept. For next week I nominate Poetry Road

an idea

December 13, 2011February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 6 Comments

unveiled…

your eyes are the windows
to a lifetime
of wisdom
within

practicing…
you hear
what’s written on your face
arriving as you are

the flame in the fire
has an idea
what i’m thinking

r.e.l. 12/12/11

Posted for Thursday Poet Rally 12/15-12/21/11 on The Poetry Palace

Received the Perfect Poet Award. Thank you, poet community! I accept… For next week I nominate Big Ape Diary 🙂 -robin

Posted on Micropoetry for theme #windows

petals

November 3, 2011February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 28 Comments

if you ever feel
lost
each piece of you,
a flower petal,
thrown and left alone
on the ground
without a cause…

just remember
that you are
a forest of flowers…

image by simeon schatz

Posted for Poet’s Rally 10/19-10/25/11 at The Poetry Palace

Received the Perfect Poet Award… Thank you, I accept 🙂 I nominated Sarah Johnston for next week.

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a deeper order

May 18, 2011February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 52 Comments

create me like i created you
in the space
which lies deeper than you know

it is where, you see,
i first found
the concept of your
decision
to think outside your unexpected life
and roar instead

impactful.
i sighed

Posted on Thursday Poet’s Rally 5/19-5/25/11 on Promising Poets

… thank you, Promising Poets, for the Celebrate Poet of Summer Award!

… thank you, Promising Poets, for the Perfect Poet award! I cherish this community of poets and am honored… For next week, I nominate deadpoet88. -robin

reason realized

March 4, 2011February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 39 Comments

you are my soul…

i see you as i am inside
looking out
to feel
with your magical sight
positioning yourself
to give me eyes

but still i ask
who are you anyway?
i know what i know what i don’t have
do you?

you have spaces
that my spaces fit in always
leaving me speechless
you are precious and tough
i’m reaching for you

you are a smile that lasts from the first light
to the last dream of you
and for you…

to see you is to hear you
knowing this about me
ever-changing as you read
my mind
to bring me my finest moments

and so i speak to you
we are reason realized
my world inside
as my tiny roots blend with you

posted for Thursday’s Poet Rally, week 39 (march 3-9)

thank you, Jingle, for the Perfect Poet Award 🙂 I accept… [For next week I nominate Loomings poetry ]

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different forms, as treasures

November 26, 2010February 23, 2015 / my secret innuendo / 33 Comments

you ask me to be still
and so i do..
you lie hidden within, unfelt
with a shield strong as stone
pushing you away.
in all directions.

don’t you hear the answers now?
as they quietly become one with the search
for what is touching you?
you are beautiful
everything is alive
in different forms
as treasures.

watch time stand still with me. ok?
help me to let go and to become one with the mystery.
please.

image by my secret innuendo™ of marin county

Published (partial) on Micropoetry 3/3/14

Submitted to caesura 2/5/14

Posted for Thursday Poets Rally Week 34 (12/2-12/8/10) on Promising Poets. Received the Perfect Poet Award…. Thanks so much, I accept 🙂 [For week 35 I nominate Jargnar]